Tag: ed tw

wlwellbutrin:

i just want people to know that engaging in disordered eating patterns is harmful and difficult regardless of whether it never morphs into a clinically diagnosable eating disorder, and if you are dealing with any of this you have my utmost sympathy and care. i am so tired of diet culture treating these behaviors as though they’re completely fine as long as they’re not “bad enough.”

anyways remember yesterday when i was sleep deprived but not as much as today and i cried in a dressing room? so like ,,, yeah my recovery weight gain has led to not passing in some of my men’s jeans which im good w i dress in baggy shirts and flannels anyways BUT,, GET THIS,,,,,,,, i tried on my men’s dress pants that were too big on me when i bought them and???? they fuckin fit now and they make my legs look long, hide the feminine thighs makes it look like it’s goin straight down ive never felt so passing in pants before i seriously thought i accidentally tried on my moms old pants and put my hand in my pocket dejectedly just to feel my hand fit entirely in the pocket and i was like ,,,,MY MENS P ANTS

im so fuckin hungry and ive been so anxious lately and the eating is not helping the anxiety ive been eating so much and im never fucking full and ive been too physically exhausted to work out and idk im tryin really hard to let myself be ok with eating so much but it’s just , a lot it’s way more than i should need i just don’t wanna feel hungry anymore

(eating disorder tw) Frankie! I was wondering if you have any advice for when you can’t convince/force yourself to eat. I managed some fruit but that felt like too much even though I know logically it’s not enough. All the foods in my house don’t seem low cal enough :( I dunno what to do. I’m hungry but I can’t eat :/

Idk sometimes if I have someone to eat with the societal pressure does the trick or ill try to give myself little incentives after every time i eat? Even recognizing that if it’s just a bad day u don’t have to have a big meal u can just spread it out or thinkin abt calories as energy and goin “well I walked up the stairs and did this and did that so when I eat this I’m not adding anything on for the day I’m zeroing it out”. Sorry I can’t be much help a lot of my recovery has been mental gymnastics that wouldn’t make much sense to anyone else and it’s hard to remember my mental processes when I was feelin like that regularly :/